failure

Relationship in Reverse

I first felt
I had failed
long before
we faded 
out.

I felt
I’d failed
before
we faded 
back in.

I felt
I’d failed
before
we first
failed
for real.

I felt
I’d failed
at the fore,
where we 
first faced,
face first.

I felt
I’d failed
even before
the fore,
before
we first
faded in. 

For years,
I’d felt
I’d failed
without facing
the fact that 
I failed
to force
myself
to face
the facts
of my fears.

The facts, 
which, 
if fully faced,
fully inform
one fully
to transform

from fear 
to freedom,
from here...
forth.

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